I have been avoiding posting anything because I didn’t want to think about it another day. I knew I would write down what I was feeling and wasn’t quite ready to put it into words. When it comes down to it I just don’t know if I have the strength to do it ALL again. With Alexander, he just turned 3 and is chatting up a storm and he listens better in noisy environments then my other children. I could see the light at the end of the tunnel. Never in our wildest dreams did we think it could happen again.
I had imagined Reese and I spending her first months lounging around, making baby announcements, working on house projects and cooking, instead I have been spending my time contacting Dr.’s from all over the country and meeting with service coordinators from our county. It seems so unreal, we’re doing this all over again. As her mom I get to be the one who is the hearing aid expert, therapist and teacher. I am all too familiar with the process; which is a blessing and a curse at the same time. There is so much time invested physically, financially and emotionally. I know what has to be done to help her succeed. Yet every hearing loss is like a fingerprint, no one’s is the same. Nothing is a guarantee.
My friend Jessica said it best, “having children with health problems is heart wrenching, faith building, and teaches you that you can do things never imagined”.
What did I not learn the first time that I need to learn this time around?
Hearing aids will be on in a little over a week.